When there is a specific reason why I feel depressed, I do my best to remember it. After recently feeling depressed, and having deep inner thoughts, I believe I care about helping other people too much. (Helping other people smile is great, but learning how to help yourself smile a great too)

Episode 59 - I think I know why I feel depressed...

Feeling numb doesn't feel too comfortable, but I do my best to talk about it. Please know that you are not alone and that we will get through this. To get more connected, visit the Depression Talks YouTube channel.

Episode 58 - Feeling Numb Towards The People Around Me

I won't let you give up! I won't let you quit! Keep going! I am rooting for you. I'm not sure if times are hard for you right now, but if they are, you are not alone. I am believing in you getting through this moment in your life. I hope this podcast episode uplifts and motivates you to grow and evolve positively during this time of your life. Positive thoughts! You got this. (Visit patreon.com/mentalhealthwarriors for more mental quotes and mental health motivation)

Episode 57 - I Want You To Win (Keep Going)

This is my longest streak, and I want to tell you about it. I'm glad I'm still breathing to be able to record this episode. You are not alone. Keep going.
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Episode 56 - This is the longest I have felt depression free...

I'm just checking in on you. Are you okay? How's life been? I genuinely want to know. I hope you enjoy our dialogue together. Talk with you soon, DT Nation. 

Episode 55 - Hey, are you okay?

Have you ever asked yourself, "How the heck am I still alive and breathing today?" I ask myself that almost every single day, especially after some recent chaotic events that have happened in my personal life lately. In this episode, I do my best to touch upon the "5 Health Buckets of Life" concept I've created and have been focusing on filling them up myself. Minimalizing my day-to-day to these 5 buckets has helped me push through a lot of mental noise and mental challenges that I face due to my own depression and anxiety. I hope that by sharing these with you, you write these buckets down for yourself and begin your journey of gaining confidence in the ability to fill your own buckets. You can do this. You are not alone when it comes to fighting the mental health stigma, depression, anxiety, or low self-esteem. I'm rooting for you. I'm rooting for us. Let's keep pushing forward DT Nation. 

Episode 54 - I Barely Made It Through (The 5 Health Buckets of Life)

Here is the audio from my 'Depression Talks YouTube Channel' video called, "None Of This Matters." I recorded and shared this video openly on my YouTube Channel, but I understand that there is a different audience here on this podcast. Thank you. Thank you so much for supporting me through all of this time. This has been a journey that has almost made me quit on Depression Talks and my own life so many times. But DT Nation, I am still here, still breathing, and I know I'm not alone in this crazy thing called life. Let's keep fighting and pushing forward one day, one second, one moment at a time! This wasn't an easy moment for me, but I made it through. If you would like to get more connected with me and my mission to change the mental health stigma, you can visit DepressionTalks.org

None Of This Matters

Many people share reasons to be alive or reasons to stay alive, and the majority of the time I would say... their advice may actually make things worse. In this episode, I share what I believe are 'healthy' reasons to want to stay alive. I believe they are healthy because they are all internal reasons (instead of most advice being external reasons from the individual who is feeling depressed). This mental fight to stay alive is not always easy, but it's still a fight. That means we can't give up. Winning is breathing to me. As long as we're breathing, we're still pushing forward with a purpose. Let's continue to push forward. We got this DT Nation. 

Episode 53 - Healthy Reasons To Still Want To Stay Alive

I'm exhausted. I just want to sleep right now. I keep on fighting this thing called "life", and it's annoying me. Even so, I keep on fighting. I won't give up. I refuse to. Depression and anxiety are a part of my life. It takes hard work to continue to healthily manage my mental health all the time. I'm tired of thinking about and having negative thought loops that play over and over again in my mind. In this episode, I open up about what I'm currently experiencing mentally and emotionally. I hope that by opening up to you, you see that you are not alone when it comes to fighting depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. DT Nation, let's keep on fighting and staying strong. We got this. 

Episode 52 - I Am Always Tired

I really did my best in this episode to try and explain complex thoughts I had to work through during my recent emotional breakdown. These weren't "normal tears" similar to other depressive episodes I've had in the past. This one hurt. There were no signs of sadness on my face. Just a stern and intense stare off into space while tears kept pouring out. 
 
If you have been a listener to this podcast, you know that when I have a mental breakthrough, I share that experience with you here. We are in this fight together when it comes to battling depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. I promise you that you are not alone. If you are currently struggling with taking physical action in something, I hope that listening to this episode shifts your perspective into a positive for your health and growth. You got this. (Visit DepressionTalks.org for more info).

Episode 51 - I Just Had An Emotional Breakdown

I just uploaded this video to my YouTube channel "Depression Talks" titled "I don't like talking about this...". It's hard for me to talk during moments like this. I feel numb, empty, and trapped... like I'm in a dense fog not knowing my way out. I hope my "letting it out" helps you in some way. I don't know how, but I just hope it does. Depression and anxiety are real, and I'm not afraid to tell the world that.

I don't like talking about this...

My short answer, nothing. There is nothing wrong with being weird, awkward, or different. I didn't always feel this way. I actually struggled the majority of my life feeling like I was not good enough because I was weird. Every time I didn't fit in and was made fun of for being myself, my confidence, self-esteem, and mentality lowered dramatically. It felt impossible to love the person I looked at in the mirror. 
 
Now, I embrace my weirdness! I love how different I am from others. I don't mind being called weird or different because that makes me unique in my own way. I have no desire to be like anyone else. I'd rather be myself. In life, that's all I can be. Me.
 
If you are someone that feels like an outcast, you are not alone. Embrace what makes you different. Embrace being "weird". You are more than enough already being actual who you are. 

Episode 50 - What's wrong with being weird?

What is your definition of happiness? How would you choose to define it? In this episode, I share my thoughts and perspective on the word 'happiness', and how to feel it a little more every day. If you are someone that wants to increase your amount of daily "happy minutes" and hear a deeper insight into the feeling of happiness, this episode is for you. Keep on taking action towards better understanding your own thoughts and emotions (one of my suggestions is to set a time for 5 minutes and journal at least once a day). If you don't know where to begin, start by writing down your own definition of happiness. I'm rooting for you DT Nation! You are not alone. 

Episode 49 - What Is the Definition of Happiness?

The question, "Why should I keep going in life?", comes to my mind on a daily basis. I do literally mean 'daily'. No matter how far I go in success, relationships, finances, or even personal development, this question still pops up in my head every single day. It wasn't until recently I learned that I'm completely okay with that. In this episode, I do my best to motivate you, and myself, to keep going. To not give up on ourselves and life. I am feeling depressed right now and a little hopeless, but I have given up on my life before, and I refuse to let that be an option! We must keep pushing forward. I hope you find this episode helpful, especially if you are feeling alone and depressed right now. You are not alone. I'm rooting for you to get through this. You got this. 

Episode 48 - Why Should I Keep Going In Life (Depression Motivation)

There is still such a huge stigma behind a man crying or being "too emotional". This leads the majority of men to not knowing how to understand their own emotions or the emotions of the people around them. As an emotional and empathetic man, I find it sad to see other men being called "weak" or "too feminine" for expressing how they feel. I know I may be seen as weak or unorthodox for speaking upon this unpopular opinion, but I stand by it firmly. As a human being, you are allowed to express ALL emotions there are. Simple as that. If you want to join a group that openly talks about mental health, self-esteem, and even sadness without the emotional social-norms, join the private DT Nation Facebook group. Go to Facebook and type in, "DT Nation" to find the group. You are not alone. 

Episode 47 - Why Don't Men Show Their Own Emotions

The pressure to feel like you have to be happy in life is real. In short words, you don't always have to feel happy in every single moment and second. There are times where we will feel down. That's okay. But, it's during those moments you have to dig deep and the real work begins. Do you journal when you're feeling low? Or go for a walk? These small changes add up and make a big difference over time. I really open up in this episode, and I hope that it shows you that you are not alone when it comes to this thing called life. We got this! If you would like to join the private DT Nation Facebook group and share some of your mental breakthroughs, art, music, or tips, go to Facebook and type in "DT Nation". Keep pushing forward!

Episode 46 -  The Pressure To Be Happy

The title of this episode says it all! I believe there is a perception the world has of people who deal with having a mental illness. For me, that's a problem! Please know you are not weak for having a mental illness, going to therapy, seeing a psychiatrist, etc. You are learning how to better manage and take care of your mental health one day at a time. That doesn't make you weak. That makes you a 'Mental Health Warrior', someone choosing to continue to fight their own mental battles despite their mental obstacles. That's not weak, that's inspiring. Keep pushing forward. Keep breaking those mental barriers. You got this. If you would like to join the private 'DT Nation Facebook Group' to join other people that openly talk about their mental health and how they continue to push through, go to Facebook and type in, "DT Nation". 

Episode 45 - You Are Not "Weak" If You Deal With Depression

"I can be happy too! Happiness is not a destination. It's a moment in time, a mindset, and something we always strive to hold onto." These are words I share at the end of this episode, and I stand firm by them. I want you to know that happiness in life is possible, and the only thing it takes is hard work. That sounds oversimplified, but it's not. Happiness in life does not come by accident, it happens on purpose. I'm rooting for you. Depression and anxiety DOES NOT have to hold you back from living your best life right now. If you would like to join the private DT Nation Facebook group, go to Facebook and type in "DT Nation" to join an awesome loving group of people that openly talk about mental health. 

Episode 44 - How To Be Happy Again (Acoustic Guitar)

Learning how to love yourself is essential in life. I truly believe that. I couldn't say that 2 months ago when I recorded my last episode. DT Nation, please know that you are not alone. When it comes to dealing with depression, anxiety, sadness, hopelessness, and even loneliness, you are NOT alone. I am rooting for you. I mean that. It's a daily fight to learn how to better manage your physical health, mental health, emotional health, and spiritual health. It can even feel exhausting. But I promise you the fight is worth it. Keep pushing forward. You got this DT Nation! 

Episode 43 - Loving Yourself Is Not B.S.

It was painful for me to shoot this episode. It physically hurt. 
 
Right now I am feeling depressed. I haven't been able to record an episode in a longer period of time than I would like because of it. It's hard to formulate concepts, thoughts, or even share how I'm feeling because I'd just rather not talk and bottle things up. 
 
Listen, to me, this sounds backwards, but please let me know if it's not.
*Is it weird for me to feel depressed because I want to help more people?"* Isn't that lame or not that big of a deal? Am I just overthinking? I don't know... 
 
I am going to keep pushing forward one moment at a time. I know I will get through this. I won't quit and I will keep going. "It's better to crawl forward than it is to lay down." - Immanuel

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